Archive for May, 2010


It gets so busy and frantic that I’ve neglected this blog, my thoughts for so so long.

My thoughts have been confused and clouded at times. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I’m down down down.

I’m finishing up work on 21 May. I will be unemployed. I’m scared shitless. Really fcking scared.

I just want to get out of this place. I feel stupid and overwhelmed. I lost all self-confidence and I don’t know how to get it back.

I want to work, do my job well and go home to my family. That’s all. I used to have grand ambitions, but now I just want to work and go home on time.

Pretty pathetic, I know….

I hate how stupid I feel. I just want a bit of a pick me up with a new job. I want to do well. I want to love my job.

It cant be THAT hard, now can it???


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